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An Actual Blag! Imagine that!

(Sat Apr 26 22:48:44 2008)

Things move too fast.

Whew. There's been a lot going on; well, ok, there's always a lot going on. I wish it would slow down, though. Sure, it's fun to spend 8 hours solving problems at work, come home and make a delicious meal, spend a couple hours with my son, then wrap up the day with a little cleaning or computer-fixing, but some days I kinda wish I could have some time to myself. Not a lot of time - just enough time to get stuff DONE. I've figured it up (while sitting at work waiting for a file to compile) - if I had two weeks that I could work "full time" (that is, 8 hours a day minimum) on all my computers, packing stuff up, and generally making everything ship-shape, I could actually get everything working (using past time-spent-until-it-works as a guide).

But, alas, this won't ever happen, if for no other reason than I don't want to waste good vacation time cleaning house. I'm thinking the best I can hope for is maybe 2 hours a night, if I'm lucky. Which is aggrevating. I know I could switch the wobsite over to a SQL database instead of text files, or that I could get my wife's computer to play Youtube videos, or that I could make waffles... I just don't have enough time to do it in. 80 hours (that is, two 40 hour weeks) would be enough to get everything running; two hours a night means that 40 days later everything works - except that which failed in the last couple months I've been working on things, and I have to go back and start all over.

I think the worst part is that, while I could implement a decent solution in a full day of working at it, I end up kludging something together that just "sorta" works. Like the text files; I could have started with a database, I just didn't have time to study it and figure out the best way to do it. Ah well; I guess that's life. I'll have a tiny bit more time soon, when my class is done; maybe I can work on stuff then.

I sure miss having lots of time, though. I miss being able to sit down and write stories, or make art, or read a book, or set up army men, or play legos... sigh. When I was a kid, I had lots of time; being homeschooled gave me even more time, since I was generally done with school before lunch. Looking back, I think I used that time pretty well; I played outside, or read, or did constructive things. Not much time wasted watching TV or complaining "I'm bored!" (though I did do both of those every once in a while). There were a few things I couldn't do, or course; advanced circuit design was a little out of reach, mostly because I hadn't learned what I needed to learn, and I didn't have the money for it anyway. Now that I'm a "grownup", I have space to do things like paint, and money for things like publish my own book - but I don't have the time to sit down and write one.

Well, it's late, and I've still more things to do; I'll end this with the usual blagwish:

Blagwish: Someone I can trust to help me code this site. (Send your resume to i.arman at the google mail service, along with a stamped and addressed envelope...)

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